Remember that old Herman’s Hermits song that went “got up this morning feeling fine?” Well, I did. Just wish it would have lasted longer. But no … fibromyalgia had to rear its ugly head!
Morning in Kalispell, MT was overcast with a 30% chance of rain – we know what that means, don’t we? It definitely rained off and on most of the day. But a little bit of rain never kept me from doing the things I want to. We set off for Glacier National Park and although the cloud deck was low, there were some lovely views and some amazing waterfalls (all that rain has to go somewhere). It would have been a good time if it weren’t for the pain.
For those of you who don’t have fibromyalgia, you may be thinking “What’s the big deal with a little pain?” And you’re right. It isn’t like the pain of breaking your hip. It’s a bit more insidious. Imagine a toothache – dull, gnawing, constantly there breaking into your consciousness no matter what you do. Now take that pain and extend it to your entire body. Not just one small place, but head to toe. Sure, there are some places where the pain is worse. But you have this pain in your neck, your back, your abdomen, your legs and arms. Makes it tough to have fun.
I really try hard not to whine and complain. First of all, it’s not fair to my husband who works so hard to help me avoid the pain. But mostly, the majority of people don’t understand what the pervasive pain feels like, so they don’t care. And they don’t want to hear about it. Trust me! When anyone asks you “How are you?”, they really don’t want the truth. Try it some time. When someone casually asks you how you’re doing, tell them. Watch how fast they glaze over, their eyes begin to wander and they hurry away from you.
I’ve taken a muscle relaxant, lots of pain meds and a nap. Now it’s time to bring in the big guns – a pint of Ben & Jerry’s ice cream. Hey, if I have to have pain, I think I’m entitled to a little pleasure along with it!