Sometimes you wake in the middle of the night for a bathroom run and then go right back to sleep. This isn’t one of those nights.
This is one of those early mornings – way too early – when you wake up for that bathroom run and feel wide awake and ready to start the day. Too bad the rest the world doesn’t see it that way. There’s nothing on TV, AOL news online hasn’t changed since bedtime (except that O J is being held without bail), there’s really nothing to write about and you’re too awake to just lie in bed and wait to fall asleep again.
There is, unfortunately, more pain than you’d like. That would be enough in itself to keep you awake, even if the brain were uncooperative. But the brain is ready to go for the day. And it won’t listen when you politely try to reason that, if you stay up now, by suppertime you’ll be ready for the proverbial “long winter’s nap.” Okay, take something for the pain. But when you take something for pain, it isn’t wise to do it on an empty stomach. 800 mg Ibuprofen can “eat a hole in your gut” (my phrase) if you don’t have it with some food, especially when you’re hoping to be horizontal instead of vertical very soon. So out comes the cold cereal – Oat Cluster Cheerios. 2 Bowls – don’t ask why – I have far less self control at 3 AM. And yes, it is entered in my new food/activity log. Honesty is unfortunately always the best policy, especially when communicating with yourself.
So now what? I have to wait for the medicine to start digesting. I need to sit up for a while. So here I am – pouring the whole sad state of affairs out to you. Aren’t you excited? The difficult part is I have several things that have to be done today – none of which I can do right now. Grocery shopping. Laundry. A sink full of dirty dishes. Call my doctor for a prescription refill. Work on some ornaments for church, maybe. And because I am so awake now, by the time a reasonable hour rolls around, I may be ready for a nap instead of work.
How about that? All this strenuous writing (and staring at a white screen while trying to think) has actually started to lull me back into sleep mode. I must be boring even myself!!
I’m going to work on the computer for 5-10 more minutes – then it’s back to bed and hope to fall asleep. Good night – or should I say, good morning? Whatever. Later.