I can’t believe how long it’s been since I last posted. Nearly 2 months! Yes, it’s been a busy time with vacations and holidays. But I think the biggest reason for the break is that I’ve been fighting a bit of depression. I know that’s true now and I suspect it started back in November, when the amount of daylight began to dwindle.
When I get depressed, I don’t get sad or “blue”, I get apathetic and lethargic. So I’ve been doing only what I have to do and not much else. Hence, no writing.
So let’s see, what have I been up to since November?
We actually had the best Thanksgiving we’ve had in quite a while. We stayed home and I cooked a turkey for the two of us (no, we didn’t eat it all in one day). My son went out with my sister, her husband and my step-dad. I knew my husband wanted a turkey and probably wouldn’t get a very good one if we went out, so I opted for staying home. It was quiet, the house smelled great and the turkey was the best I recall cooking. Afterward, we went to visit my husband’s parents for a little while and that put a bit of a damper on our turkey high. They were complaining about neighbors for a while and we didn’t enjoy that one bit – especially since their complaints were really petty.
In early December, we went to Florida for a vacation. We started in Tampa for one night, so I could see the Tampa Bay Lightning play. My favorite player, Martin St Louis plays for them and I like to see them whenever I can. But they lost to the Buffalo Sabres. Great start to the vacation.
We did go up to Tarpon Springs for dinner before the game. We ate at the Parthenon Restaurant – great Greek food!
We headed for Orlando the next morning – nice drive on “low roads” for the most part. We stayed at the Embassy Suites – very nice. We spent a lot of time at Epcot and our timing was really good. One of the days we were there, the Norway exhibit was host to Capt Sig Hansen and his brother Edgar of the Northwestern fishing boat of “Deadliest Catch” fame. They had merchandise, of course, but it was a real kick meeting two guys who risk their lives for our dinner.
We spent a little bit of time at the Animal Kingdom. Surprisingly, the animals were active earlier in the afternoon than we had experienced in other visits. Maybe they were responding to the lessened daylight also. We took in the Osborne Family Christmas light exhibit at the Disney Hollywood Studios park. We had a blast at Mickey’s Very Merry Christmas Party at the Magic Kingdom one evening. This was our third time at this event (3 different years) and I guess the third time really is the charm. The weather was finally great (we’d previously had really cold one time, rainy another) and we knew what we wanted to do. Big Thunder Mountain Railroad was a blast!! We noted a few changes in some of the rides and enjoyed the free hot chocolate and cookies. We had a great spot to watch the fireworks and saw the parade.
One morning of this vacation, we went to meet the parents of the cousin I had met in October. The husband would be my mother’s first cousin, his father and my grandfather being half-brothers. They gave us lunch and we talked about our families. It was wonderful, but it made me sad, too. My mother would have loved to have met them. I wish we had known all this while she was still alive.
Of course, we had the usual Christmas shopping to do and all the preparations that go with the holidays. We came home to Florida to be greeted by a flooded basement. While everyone to the north us had gotten freezing rain, we had just plain rain and plenty of it! It took several days to pump out and dry out the basement. Still, we made out better than much of New England, where the ice coated trees and power lines, causing hundreds of thousands of outages. Better wet than cold and in the dark.
Christmas Eve we went to my in-laws, as is our usual custom. Christmas Day we left for a trip to Delaware to visit my step-son and his girlfriend. We spent several days with them, going out to eat, to the casino and even ice skating (well, not me, just the others).
What I haven’t done since November is think about what I’m eating. I have put back almost 10 lbs in the space of 2 months!! We both went kind of crazy. I don’t remember the last time I had so much sugar in such a short period of time. Needless to say, just like Oprah, we are getting back on the wagon. Truth be told, I don’t feel as well eating that way as I did before. I need to get my health back on the right track. I suspect eating better again and getting back to the treadmill will help with the depression, too.
My fibromyalgia has been flaring more since November also. That’s another reason to get my balance back. It still amazes me how things are so intertwined. Over the years, I’ve noted that fibro flares tend to send me straight to the carbs (I imagine because the carbs increase serotonin and thus ease pain – self medication). But the carbs can cause the mood swings to be exacerbated. That usually causes a decrease in physical activity. It also seems to increase the fibro fog and lethargy. So I cut back on the carbs and the pain increases. I try medication instead of food. Most of it isn’t very effective. Ah, well, after more than 40 years at this, you would think I’d know better. I think that’s what I hate most about fibromyalgia – it’s so unpredictable. You can do the same thing twice and your body won’t react the same way twice.
Anyway, if I sound cranky for a while or complain a bit, blame it on the changes in diet, the increased exercise, the fibromyalgia, the depression, whatever you’d like.