I love my work with ONE Spirit, the organization which provides sponsors for persons who request them on Pine Ridge Reservation.
But as in any job, paid or not, there are parts of the job and parts of the “company’s” structure that I find problematic. Perhaps I see a better way to get something done. Or maybe I think that a program should be completely revamped. Sometimes I question the feedback I’m getting from program participants. Sometimes I question the information I am getting from those who are higher than me on the totem pole of responsibility.
This has happened in just about every job I’ve held and every organization with which I have interacted. I suspect I am not alone in that. We all have varying perspectives when we are in a group. We have different backgrounds and experiences. We may not voice all our opinions – at least if we are smart, we won’t – but we definitely have them.
That’s the dilemma in which I find myself right now. I have some definite opinions about work flow and program issues. Typically I would use this forum to rant about problems. But there are people from both sides of them who read this and I do not want to burn any bridges or alienate any who might be hurt by my opinions.
So I am finding stress where I don’t want it (Now that sounds stupid, doesn’t it? Do we ever find stress where we want it?) But I think maybe you know what I mean. I don’t want the things I do that bring pleasure to also be bringing stress.
So I am between the proverbial rock and hard place. Do I voice my opinions and rock the boat? Or do I keep my mouth shut, which will keep the outer peace though I will feel increased stress, which is a hard place for me to be?
I’m not really asking you for the answer. In the end, I’ll do what will be the most good.
I’m just reminding you that it is important to consider the results and unintended repercussions of your decisions.
Nothing is ever as simple as it first appears.